V.I.P. Passes

Every so often I like to write something a little personal. My birthday is less than a few hours away, and of course getting a year older makes me reflect on the past year. Overall I can say I’m content with the past year. My projects have had some ups and downs, but that’s to be expected. I’m overall happy with the accomplishments I’ve made over the past year. One thing I would like to work on is giving people so much access. I’m aware that I’m chasing a career where I can tend to be very transparent. I’ve learned that if you let people see too much you can start to feel naked. That’s something I’ve been experiencing as of late. That feeling of being completely naked and not having anything for myself. (Especially when you surround yourself around people who only let you into maybe 10 percent of their life, but expect to see 100 percent of yours). At this point I can speak very freely because my audience isn’t that large. I know one day that will change, so I’m going to take advantage of it for the mean time. For some odd reason I feel like I always have to answer the phone, respond to every message and email or give feedback to every DM. Amongst my circle, for some reason I’m not allowed to be busy. It’s something I’m working on changing. My work is very important to me and I feel as though I’ve been too sidetracked for too long. I also noticed that some people could use the tactic of sidetracking you, because they actually don’t want to see you win. I certainly peeped that a while ago. Balance is the key word here that I’m looking for. With turning a year older I want to practice discipline, and balance more often. I also want to practice free though. I’ve not only learned, but agreed with a lot that Kanye West had to say over the past week. I don’t care to make it make sense to anyone else. It’s just how I feel. I don’t this game I’ve decided to get in, and learning what it requires. I’m aware of it. I’m learning more and more as time goes on as well. I need to stop giving V.I.P. passes to people that never believed the party would happen in the first place. Cheers to 5/5! As always I love you for listening.

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